Couple of things that I needed to jot down. Yeah its a early post but screw it.
Last night I found a new dating coach with some stellar advice. He speaks the complete opposite of what others are stating about how men should act towards women. One would be to talk more and text less. So I said fuck it, let me call this chick up(my crush) and see if things would change. I called, and she didn't pick up. Nor did I get a text telling me that she was busy or a call back. Just radio fucking silence.
So at this point its clear to me. This girl just wasn't feeling me. I wanted to believe Like I REALLY wanted to believe the opposite but all of the signs are there. So I have to fall back. All the way back. I need to delete her number in my phone and pretend I never had it in the first place. And chances are, I wont hear from her anyways.
It's Ironic how this is going though. Me and her matched on Tinder. Unbeknownst to me she also has an account on Okcupid. I wouldn't be surprised if I discover that she has a account on POF too. So she is clearly looking for something.
I guess I'm just not it.
I love how on her profile she claim's that she's tired of being single and looking for something serious. But yet here I am, actively interested, and she's playing me like a fiddle. Really fucking ironic.......I honestly should've guessed what was up on New Years eve when we were supposed to meet up. She was going to leave me out in the cold all fucking night without even telling me that she wasn't coming. I had to contact HER to get the confirmation. smh
Part of me wants to give up on online dating and just wait till the weather warms up so I can go back out in the field. Another part of me wants to keep searching and hoping to find at least one cool chick to be around. Unfortunately I'm just not sure if that will happen with what I'm currently doing right now. So I think I'm going to elect to not even fuck with Okcupid or POF any more. Tinder is slowly but surely going to be in that pathway too. Oh and funny thing about Tinder, I'm finding myself matching with all types of girls who don't even live in the area let alone the state I'm in. And if I do match with a girl who lives in the area its always a single mother. I'm not even giving girls like this the time of day. Especially what happened with the last bitch. It's like girls online who happen to live in Atlanta are repulsed by me or something. So it just may be time to give up on online dating sites for good.
I'm really taking all of this as a lesson learned quite frankly. Just 6 months ago I was in a relationship but I wasn't particularly happy. I'm quickly realizing that maybe I took things for granted in one of the worst ways. I have her back as a friend but I really wish I could turn back time and fix things so I wouldn't have to worry about who I'm dating next or who she's dating next.
I really thought I was missing out on something out here, come to find out, I really wasn't.......
Next post will be about my art unless something interesting happens that I just have to jot down...
