Man, if only I could smoke again. Because then I wouldnt be so much in my head.
I dont want this blog to be a place where I express my sad thoughts all of the time and I promise this won't last forever but I'm really starting to feel down on myself.
I dont know if it's the weather or maybe I'm just lonely as fuck but I'm just not in a happy space right now. And the main culprit are the women im trying to date.
Every girl I'm even remotely interested in, seems like they aren't interested in me. They play games, don't text back, or don't text at all. Another one that I really thought was into me hasn't contacted me since Christmas. She was a cool chick to be around. Physically, she wouldn't be my first choice but I really dug her personality. So much so that I decided to meet up with her twice. We went to the movies on our second date. Kissed a few times so I figure that I was in the bag. Apparently I was wrong.
After our last date, I was expecting to see her fairly soon. I have a rule where I dont take a chick out again after the second date unless we have sex. I was incredibly confident that sex would happen. But it didn't. A week goes by and she finally texts me saying that she was bored. I tell her to come by. She says that it's too far. Mind you, her ass had no problem coming to see me on our first date. So why the change? Needless to say she never showed up. I haven't seen or heard from her since. I'm just trying to figure out why the hell does this keep happening to me? I meet a chick, we go out on a date and hit it off. She pursues me. I pursue back. sometimes a second date happens, and then things fizzle out.
Most of the time second dates don't even happen. It fizzles out somewhere between the time after the first date and the setting up of the second date. This shit happens every single time. I'm getting to the point now where I dont even wanna ask a girl out anymore. If they aren't cooperating from jump then theres no point. And im sooo sick of spending money on these chicks who "don't like me like that".
The ones who do like me are the ones I'd rather not. Fats girls and baby mamas seem to be all that I attract. I might be going out with one girl tommorow but shes a fucking single mom with 2 kids. She's pretty as hell and all I want to do is have sex. Nothing less, nothing more so im thinking of letting that be known if we go out. I'm tired of beating around the bush with these women. If a chick can't get with my program then she can fucking kick rocks.
Im starting to wish I could just rewind time and fix somethings before life broke shit up. Because what im learning from this shit is that these girls are extremely fickle out here in this city. And I'm working hard to figure them out but nothing I'm doing seems to be working.
