Man.....i don't even know where to start.
I shot myself in the foot a couple of times this week. Basically, it just has not been my week.
First things first, I think I'm going to be forced to find a full time job somewhere. Because if not, I'll either be homeless or forced to live back home. And I would rather not take either side. This is because I don't make enough money according to the leasing office of the the apartments where I stay. So I couldn't resign a lease with only my name on it. So I shot my self in the foot and contacted my ex. I practically had to be her to resign it with me. But she wants her name off by April. So I have to find a real job quickly. I have no idea how Im going to do that honestly.
Because of this favor, I told her that I wouldn't mind being her friend again. Shot myself in the foot again....I mean, don't get me wrong. I do miss her, and at times it does get lonely around here. But this is all happening too fast and prematurely. I'm not sure how all of this is gonna go, but i know how it isn't. I'm standing firm on that we are not going to get back together. I have a feeling that she may try, but it's not happening.
I shot myself in the foot once more. I should have crazy holes in my feet right now smh. I contacted my crush. As much as I didn't want to, my urge couldn't help it. She responded back 5 minutes later. I tried to set something up but as expected, she was giving me the complete run around. Telling me that she has to work and she'll be busy. This is when I should've stopped responding but I kept trying to make something work. I told her that I wanted to see her and she told me that she wanted to see me. I responded back with "let's make it happen then lol" and she responded back with A simple "ok". I didnt text back and neither did she. This happened 2 days ago. I haven't heard from her since. Meaning that she just isnt interested as I thought she was. Which really fucking sucks because I really thought she was. All the fucking signs were there. Our first date went by smooth and she kept complimenting me.
I just can't figure these girls out man. All of the dating advice I'm taking from these dating coaches online and none of it's working. I keep dealing with girls that I dont want. And they make everything so easy. If they want to see me, they make it happen. None of this wishy washy flaky stuff. But the girls that I do want, seem to want nothing to do with me. Always flaking, acting distant, slow texting. All that shit. Some chick gave me her number just yesterday. I texted her, and she didn't even respond. And I know chicks keep their phones on them at all times so I know the bitch saw my message.
Ugh! I really can't figure it out. What the fuck am I missing that these other guys who are successful with women have? It's like everywhere I turn I keep hearing how there are so many beautiful women down here who are single and actively looking. Then why the fuck am I having such bad luck? Shit is ridiculous.....
