I've accepted that if I dont go out and make changes on my life that things will never change on their own. Ive stopped using Tinder seriously, well kinda. I still use it but no where near like I used to. I even stopped paying for it. Ive come to a realization that not a single interaction I've had from it were actually positive. So why the fuck would I continue to keep paying for it? And I've had a lot of interactions on there, so that says a lot.
Part of it is my fault, as I claimed that I would be 100% honest with the girls I was associating myself with. But I was more like being 70% honest with them. This lead to a bunch of girls playing around and pissing me off.
I'm not going to lie to myself and say that I am 100% cured of the bullshit. But I am trying to keep mental notes whenever I interact with a new chick on there. Basically I just need to try my best to be honest with everyone. Because when I'm on 70% the women have expectations that they want met, and they usually have actual dating expectations. But the funny thing is, I've wasted soooo much time dealing with girls on dates that I KNOW wouldn't be my first choice to take out if I had my own pick of the litter.
So even though I was being around 70% honest with them, I still was leaving that other 30% hanging around. And because girls are girls, they ignored the 70% and grabbed that 30% potential and ran with it.
This is more than likely why I've been failing soooo much with girls on Tinder. But now, things are about to change.....
A lot of dating coaches say that dating is a numbers game. Which I completely agree. They also say that Tinder is also a numbers game but to a much higher degree because even average looking women are being hit on by other guys on there. I agree with this even more. The amount of average looking women I've been out with in the past 5 months can attest to this. And if you know my history then you would know that a lot of them are complete wastes of time.
So no, even if a chick looks like Rihanna in the face, I am no longer spending money on her. No more bar dates, No more restaurant dates, No more ice cream dates. NOTHING!
Not too long ago I had a one night stand with a girl that I just met on there. I mentioned on here before how I wasn't attracted to her at all but I wanted to see how things would be if I chose a lazy way to get a girl over to my house. And it actually worked. I didn't have to take this woman to any bars, we didn't go out to eat, I didn't spend any money on her at all. We met in a Target parking lot. We walked around target for 7 minutes tops. And then she happily trailed me over to my apartment where we smoked and fucked.
Simple.
And that's what I'm doing from now on. If a girl insists that I take her out on a date then I just won't respond to her messages anymore. Because I'm noticing that maybe taking girls from Tinder on bar dates gives the girl the wrong idea. It gives me the oppurtunity to fuck up my chances. And the more I think about it, that's exactly what these girls want. So instead I'll just cut off the extra fat and keep things to the point.
Starting now.....
Man meditation is helping me out a bit 🤣....
I've started this meditation thing and it has gone well for me so far. I can feel my mind becoming more and more at peace with my current living situation. It's crazy how something I've ignored for so long is helping me so much in just 6 days.
Meditation is helping me come to terms with my circle being extremely small. Because of this, I'm really considering getting rid of Facebook, well maybe not getting rid of it but I'm considering logging off and not really logging back in. People on there aren't really concerned with my well being or if im ok. I don't feel connected to anyone on there. Not even my business partner. Who visits Atlanta frequently but seems to go out of his way to never link up. It may have something to do with my past behavior on the site. Which sucks but at the same time people change. But to these folks I guess this isn't true. A lot of them simply monitor my posts so they can find something to disagree with and argue about it. And this is AFTER I changed shit up and decided not to post what was on my mind all the time.
Some of these idiots even live in the same city that I live in. If they are supposed "friends" wouldn't you think I would get invited to certain events that these folks seem to always attend? But they don't. It's filled to the brim with a lot of fake ass folks on there. So I'm considering going ghost on there for a while.
One more thing before I close this entry out......
In a weeks time my summer will actually start. It's a Damn shame that I had to be extremely patient in this whole thing. 2 whole months of not really being social has been fucking with me mentally. But luckily things are about to change.
My best friend Bman is coming back into town. He's moving back actually. So now things can go right back to how things were before I met my ex. Back to actually having someone to hang with, smoke with, drink with, and party with. I'm excited because I've grown extremely tired of always going places or doing things alone.
Also, in 2 weeks my family on my father's side will be coming down for a family reunion. My grandmother wants me to hang with my cousin and her friends who live out here. I pray to God that she has attractive friends. Man 😅
