Back to regular scheduling......
Been a decent holiday break so far. Unfortunately not much has changed in the woman department for me. Today I realized just how much of a grasp on the game that I really have and I'll tell you that it's not much. I simply do not know what I'm doing wrong. And the only woman I seem have a effortless connection with is my ex. Everytime she comes around its like we don't skip a beat and everything goes smoothly. We never fight and if we do things chill out quickly.
Every girl I come across just isn't on that level. They all seem to wake up and want to do stupid shit to make me not want to talk to them anymore.
This blog is private now so I don't give a fuck about stating names in it. It's only for my eyes to reflect back on my inner thoughts in the future.
So I've met someone new, her name is Kartie and unfortunately I met her on Tinder due to my total lack of anything socially relevant right now. I dont go out much, simply because I don't have anyone to go out with, well we'll get to that in a moment....
This woman, for the most part comes off as a straight sleaze ball. Like I know she loves to have sex. She has a worldstar video where she's practically naked. She came over in extremely tight clothing I could see every piece of her ass through her shorts. But she was somehow acting super indifferent when it comes to me. It's interesting though because she does contact me first most of the time. But that's because she might be using me for the pool in my neighborhood. Which is weird because I'm sure she talks to so many guys who More than likely have pools in their neighborhoods. So why choose me to bother? We havent kissed or had sex, the closest thing weve done was a few intimate hugs when we were in the pool together.
Ugh women are so fucking confusing man. I guess I'll just wait around for her to ghost me like they always do.
I'm so sick of this shit.....
But then again, it's this stupid fucking app that's giving me all of these stupid encounters. But Tinder seems like the only way I can get any female attention. Even if the attention is quite shitty. I have been approaching more women on the rare occasions when I am out of the house. And when I do approach I usually get the same answer each time. "I have a boyfriend."
It kinda makes me want to stop approaching but I know if I do then I'll be stuck with these dumb ass bitches on Tinder for the rest of my life. It still bugs me that I have not had 1 single positive interaction from that app. And because I know I can't be the only one dealing with this shit, it makes me wonder just how many dudes were lying about their success with girls on Tinder.
2018 just may be one of the worst years of my life, only coming just short of 2011.
