Writing a part 2 at 12 in the morning because if I'm being honest, I really need some feminine energy around me right now.
It's very interesting how the last woman I've dealt with was Angel. And that was quite a while ago. This is because I am no longer taking online dating sites seriously. Hell I actually uninstalled tinder from my phone because I grew tired of logging on and not getting any matches. And then when I get lucky and finally get a few matches they are either fat and ugly or they dont live close to me at all. So I uninstalled that app and I doubt I'll download it again. If I feel the need to check it then I'll check it on my computer when I have free time. I also joined Okcupid again for a back up. I'm not keeping my hopes up but I do recall having quite a bit of luck dealing with women on there in the past. Simply because women from that site are a little more serious about meeting up and building connections with people. Tinder is literally just for women to get on there and waste your time if you let them.
And I choose not too soo yeah.....
And this isn't to say that I wont still be approaching chicks on the streets. I still will and in fact I aim to do that more often now because time and time again I find myself using online dating as a crutch. Not realizing that it is 10 times harder to get things going even thought it may not seem like it. Its incredibly difficult to get a women's attention on there simply because of the competition:
There are sooooo many guys that are afraid to approach women so they hide behind their phones and their keyboards to interact with women. I feel like its majority of dudes that are this way.
So basically I'm just selling myself short because I'm just one of many dudes trying to get at a certain female on the site.
Why do that when you can just approach the woman you want when you see her in real life? Chances are there wont be any guys desperately trying to approach her because most are too scared to do so. And this is where I come in.....
I've learned somethings about myself these past few weeks. And I'm slowly but surely becoming less afraid of speaking up to women I find attractive. Even if its just to say something funny to make them smile. Usually I speak up. And the women I really want, I usually approach them immediately. Something comes over me when I do it. It's a strange urge to go after what I want. My feet almost have minds of their own when I see a woman I want to approach.
But what I'm learning is that I fumble quite a lot. I slur my words. I probably dont smile enough.( more on that in a moment) and I definitely forget my objectives in the middle of me talking to them. All of this needs to be fixed because this is resulting in a dry ass phone every Friday and Saturday night. And I'm sick of it.
The last woman I approached was 2 days ago at the post office. I was ironically dropping off my old phone. When I saw this Hispanic girl with the fattest ass I've seen in person in a while. I immediately knew I was going to approach her but the minute I did all of my thoughts dissapeared.
I'm guessing because admittedly, I'm still trying to get over the fact that approaching women isn't as scary as I always thought. Usually I tell the woman I'm approaching that they looks good as hell or sexy as fuck and they usually have positive reactions to this. And this is what messes me up. I get so hyped off of their reactions that I forget why I even approached them in the first place.
This causes for awkwardness because the girl knows what I want. Shes just waiting to see if I'm man enough to tell her what I want. And I fumble everytime. Smh I gave her my number but like I expected she never did hit me up. Which is another thing I have to stop doing. If I can't hang out with the girl the same day I approach then I need to get her information instead of always giving mine out. This also goes back to reading social cues as well. There were definitely a few chicks I've approached in the past who were in no way interested in me but I ignored her signs and still pretended like everything was cool. Bad idea zay smh
So that's it. I'm done with it. The next woman I approach I am going all in. Fuck all of this small talk. I'm letting them know that I think they look great and I'm trying to hook up, fuck, see then naked, see what color panties their wearing and all of that.
I'm too old to be struggling like this with women I'm not getting any younger.
Spring is here.
It is time!
Also before I go, I am just 6 trays away from being finished with my invisalign treatment. It's crazy how time flies man. I remember when I first began this journey.
What's even crazier is how different I look now. Unfortunately I haven't had the luxury of having friends or female friends tell me that I do. Simply because there is a severe shortage on both parties.
Also, because I'm not necessarily fond of taking selfies anymore, no one really knows what I look like unless they look at a picture from like 7 months ago. But what's important is I know how much change has gone on. Theres a video I recorded of myself advertising my Patreon a few years ago and its unbelievable how different I looked back then compared to now. Straight teeth really makes a difference like WOW!!
And my teeth arent even all the way straight yet but this is very interesting stuff. And I definitely feel much confidence rise each day. Which is why I'm not afraid to approach women like that anymore. I just gotta remember to smile more. Smh
