It's been a while since I've wrote one of these because the last time my phone was acting up and it didnt save the entry so I'm trying this again a different way.
Anyways, a lot has changed since the last time I wrote an entry. I am writing this on a new phone. This is the second time I've done this and there wont be a 3rd. This is the newest phone in the Samsung line up and I really wanted it because my old phone was slow and the battery sucked balls. But I'm remembering that I probably said the same thing about the phone that replaced it. Smh but unless some crazy phone technology comes out in the next 4 years, I highly doubt I'll purchase a new phone anytime soon. I am very happy with this upgrade as I skipped 3 phone generations to get it.
Anyways enough about that. Instagram banned my accounts again. Luckily its wasn't an actual ban but a shadow one. It still sucks either way though. So I'm now im stuck using my Zayartschicas instagram account until next week. And chances are the ban probably still won't lift. Regardless I may go back to posting anyways. In the mean time I'll just stack up on drawings for Zayartschicas and much more.
As far as women are concerned, things are non existent. The last girl I had sex with was Angel and that was weeks before the last time I spoke with her on the phone. So yeah I'm going through a massive dry spell but in a way it may be needed. I feel like I've been coddling myself too much with Tinder and Online dating. So I have been making an effort to go out and approach women more. Unfortunately I've fumbled many, many times but I'm learning each time I go for it. And the weather is finally changing to match what I said I was going to do months ago. Things are heating up and rightfully so.
One thing I know I must do is to become more direct with what I want. I mentioned the Mode One mindset last year and I never really brought it up again because after all, I just assumed that it wasnt for me. And the reality is, it still may not be right for me but what I want to do is take certain aspects of it and apply it to my game. Instead of telling a woman that I want to hang out with her or link up with her I need to tell her that I want to hook up with her or something of that nature.
Another thing I noticed that is probably causing me to fumble is the masterbation part. 🤦🏾♂️ yeah I've broken my seal way too many times and honestly I still have mixed feelings about it. On one end I definitely feel the after effects of it and what it does to your mind after a while, but on the other end it's going to come out either way and I'd rather not wake up to a mess in the morning. That has happened during my attempts at no fap and its not fun.
I had a dream I was fucking this pretty ass chick. And she was looking so good that I nutted all inside her. But I was dreaming so you know how that ended up.....smh
All that being said, I know what I have to do, when I have to do it, and what I'll say when I do it.
I just gotta keep it in my head long enough so that it comes natural.
