My head space is all over the place right now. I wouldn't say that I'm happy, but I'm content.
I didn't update or interact that much at all with my Instagram account today. I just figured that I needed a break. I barely drew anything also. Simply because I had errands to tend to. I got my hair retwisted and cleaned my car for the first time in like 2 months. After that I was determined to get some female interaction. I was thinking about calling J but I couldn't help myself. I called my ex instead. It's just something about her energy that I love being around. It looks like she's actually starting to improve and live her life. Good for her. All the positive energy she brings keeps my hopes up. Keeps my hopes that I at least have one girl who genuinely likes me for friendship and sex. When I talk to other girls I just sense the bullshit I'm going to deal with.
Which is why I started listening to another dating coach. But this one seems so much different than the others. Not only is this new guys stuff fresh and new, but it breaks down everything so perfectly. He even breaks down stuff that I couldn't understand about women. He basically explains in his books that you have to be bold in a sexual way when you are out with a woman or when you approach them. You have to let them know exactly what your intentions are and if they act offended, then thats all it is, an act 50% of the time. So you have to be persistent.
This thought process is called Mode 1 and I think this could be the missing puzzle. I'm going test it soon. I've tested it on my ex and it works. Next I'm going to test it out on J.........
And....
The girl that dissed me before this blog, has come back. I reached out to her strategically on facebook after she split with her short term boyfriend. To my surprise she actually answered. But response times were slowed because Facebook has developed of habit of not telling you when you have new messages or Notifications. So today I decided to pretend like I forgot I had her number and hit her up a day later. To my surprise she answered there too. I told her that I wanted to get some ice creme. We scheduled a meet up next week on Wednesday.
Now this girl has played me before by going to see another guy while she planned to come see me. So I'm not even sure if we're just playing a game of cat and mouse or not. I just know that if it does happen then I have to be highly sexual. And be causal about sex and explicit language. I have no problem doing it with my ex or even J on occasions so It shouldn't be with other girls. This let's her know that I'm not trying to be her friend. I want to have sex with her and it's her choice if she wants to reciprocate. But in order to get there and not fuck this up I have to let things be known that I want to have sex with her or sexually flirt with her....
Well I'm getting tired.....
I'll update my progress soon....
