Updates....just a few

So here are a few updates...

Just recently bought a used Macbook and it works like a charm. I think a macbook fits my personality better than any pc laptop. Mainly because Im so interested in music and art.

However,My favorite illustration program does not work on here so Im thinking that Im stuck using that program on my PC laptop which sucks but I guess thats what I have to do.

I just cant understand......

The saying "Shit is real in the D" is a phrase I came up with after spending quite alot of time in the current city that I am living in. However I should be really saying " Shit is real in the G" G meaning the WHOLE state of Georgia. Things have not been going so well for me when it comes to the opposite sex. Actually things have been going horrible if not worse than ever before. Today I've been through 3 situations where luck has just not been on my side at ALL.

I wanna say about a week ago, I started ignoring one of my ex's calls because it seemed the only reason why she wanted to talk to me was to tell me about her current relationship status. Which in all honesty, Im happy for her but I really dont need to know every nook and cranny of her current fuckin relationship. So I confronted her about it, she didnt understand, and she initially deleted me from her facebook and possibly; her life, which im ok with.She was kind of annoyance to begin with in the first place. But I was angry because she took it so personal that she just had to delete me, so I posted a tweet about ex's and why they need to be ex's and why they need to stay that way.

So I must be getting punished for that tweet because Today I saw my another one of my ex's who i havent seen in almost a year who I honestly still love very much, but alot of things went down that Im not very proud of so things just fell apart. The tension as she walked by was so sharp it felt like it was cutting me every time she took each step. I just find it so ironic how soon as I post that tweet she appears from out of no where. And she's been doing a pretty good damn job hiding herself from me.

And finally I got stood up terribly when I got home from this girl that i really trusted. Im not really mad at this because honestly and SADLY this not the first time some inconsiderate sorry excuse for a women has done this to me. Honestly its partially my fault because most of the women I keep getting in contact with somehow keep being a little younger that me so maybe its the immaturity showing its true colors. I dont know i just cant figure it out.

I wasnt planning on releasing "The Therapy 2" but honestly if things like this keep popping up I cant see myself not releasing it.....

Updates....

Well "Fly" is officially done. Its sounds really good. Lots of new sounds and just a new all around movement. I still have The Therapy 2 in my system, Im not sure when I will release it though. i think It all depends on how Im feeling at that certain time.


As far as artwork goes Im starting the roughs for the Newest JF page tonight. So get ready.....Moves ARE BEING MADE!!!!

With Time.....

Feeling a lil better than i did yesterday. Things were just a little rough and i was going through it. I just have to constantly tell myself that things will get better in the long run.


As far as work goes,

I have a shit load of stuff to finish.

JetFlight needs to be updated
"Fly" needs to be completed
and Im working on that Compilation piece as we speak.
More stuff soon to come. Just alot of things on my shoulders right now......

New times, Struggle, Hustle....

Im at a crossroads right now....cant figure out if I'm coming or going.

One day I feel like im on top of the world the next day I feel below everyone. Im not used to feeling this way at all....

I cant really explain it

but in the words from one of my closest cousins:

"No matter how much we wish things were the way they used to be; how much we wish things were different; or how much we try to alter or reverse a bleak reality, at the end of the day sometimes we have to simply accept the fact that it is what it is...life."


I'll admit life has got me in a strangle hold but im trying to win over whatever I lost. Its been a long battle but Im trying to win this war.....

Working, busy......

So basically Im working on a few things....

Today I completed the Intro for the "Fly" mixtape. It sounds really cool and laid back. Something you wouldnt really expect for this type of mixtape but i believe it fits the tape well.

I also began working on a new compilation picture for my comic Jet Flight. I plan on working on the next page of Jet Flight some time this week if I have time. I noticed that my drawing style has changed a little bit since my last drawing. Its so amazing how my skills evolve after not drawing for about a week.

So crazy..........

In deep thought......

From time to time I have to stop and think, what if I didn't do the things I did a year ago, would things have gotten better? It sucks not knowing what you have until it's gone. And the fact that I am possibly 10 feet away from the one who was so special to me irks me. And even more so, the fact that she'd probably care less about how I feel kills me inside. However I'm slowly learning to get over what ever I left in my heart that day me and her fell apart. I hope one day to meet someone who is possibly better than her in every way so the possibility of getting over her "my first love" will be far more greater than it is today.

Just a brief thought.....


Zay the real deal