I've been stuck in a rut for about 2 days.
Maybe it's the weather but I lowkey haven't been feeling motivated fo do much of anything. I was supposed to clean this apartment up days ago but it's still dirty af.
I think my energy has been drained and I'm fighting super hard to get things back on track but it's been difficult. I finally got my Instagram account back and I've been uploading art but my reach is suffering again. I feel like I did all of that hard work with getting rid of fake accounts for nothing. Instagram is still showing my posts to the wrong people. And I haven't been able to maintain a decent upload schedule since. Ugh my art is so frustrating right now!
Dating is ok for the most part. However consistency is something that doesn't come around too often. Ironically the only kinda consistent woman in my life is Diamond. She seems to go out of her way to make time for me. And I can't lie, I really like her. Probably a bit too much. I don't want to scare her off so i keep my distance. But when I want to see her I always plan something and she almost always is down to meet.
I wish I could say the same for Angel but her situation is a lot different than Diamond's despite the fact that we probably live like 5 minutes away from each other. But she has a lot of work to do for herself before I get around to seeing her again. Which kinda blows because
1. I really had fun hanging with her last time. We had a great time and great sex was involved.
2. I had so much fun with her that I invited her to join Diamond and I in a 3 some for my birthday. I did this because she told me that shes bicurious. I didnt even have to ask. She volunteered that information. But because of her living situation and because she may have been talking through her teeth I'm not going to rely on that part not one bit.
I have other woman in my life but they aren't nearly as important as Diamond and Angel at the moment. Its definitely because of the wishy washy vibe I keep getting from a lot of them. That's that shit I don't have time for.
Well in the mean time, I'm going to bed. 👌🏽
